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Missing my friends

Hello! it's been a chaotic month for me yeah like i mentioned in the previous post that i might busy with online classes and that was true. Tried to make everything smoother so i did plan a schedule for what i'm going to do that day. Sounds so organized? hahahaha but obeying it really need a lot of efforts. Well, actually right now on my schedule i need to digest article about semantic memory research but at 10:50 pm i just remember that i haven't update this month so yeah i can't focus anymore so i decided to delay it tomorrow :p well, it's forgiven because i'm writing a good thing well let's hope my writing or my words can give benefits to people. maybe not now but some day.

So i've been writing without a post title! Wait a min... okay done with the title. Thinking back i always had friends ever since i started went to kindergarten. My episodic memory is quite strong because i still remember my kindergarten friends. They were Afrina and Aqila. Just a random fact, I met Afrina again when i was in Kesuma and also when i was in Pilah. So cool right? Okay, i will cut the chase. As stated above, yeah i miss my friends. Especially friends from school and diploma. We still follow each other on social media and save each other contact but we rarely talk to each other. Not like before. It is because adulting.

Me and my friends chose our own paths and somehow i feel like everyday they walk away and suddenly becoming a stranger. It's sad that we ended up like that. I know one must reach to another to keep the friendship going but i also think that we are alone in this journey. I mean, everyone struggling with their life and their focus is solely on them and we cannot always hoping that they will always be there for you. And i realize that this is reality and reality hurts. I miss the day i can't wait for monday to meet friends at school to talk about interesting things, the day we ate together during recess, the day we were having late night talks. We can still doing this but,,,,the feelings aren't the same.

There is one guy during my elementary school days. He was so tall with narrow eyes. I loved talking to him especially about games on facebook. After we went to high school, we lost contact. I never knew if he's fine or what. I hope he's good and he was my first best guy friend. Talking about guy friend, i have some but maybe i'm the one declaring it because i really want a guy best friend besides my brother. Probably because i always watch childhood friends love story lol i wasn't hoping for any of that to happen but just curious.....

Friends, they come and go. It'd be better if they go and bring the memories with them too...not like they were toxic but somehow our mindset are already different (maybe) or we prefer small circle as we get older. Whatever the reasons are, i treasure the memories with all my friends as long as God allows me to remember those. Hope you're all doing well my friends. I miss you guys.



Nowadays, only during birthday you will be remembered by your friends. But still, they make times to wish. Thank you :')

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