Hey! How do I start? Okay maybe I need to change my background music. Wait a minute. Changed! Alright now I can focus. So I started my semester break early September and it's a whole month break which I really appreciate it and I want to enjoy it as much as I can. I know I should've found a part time job. Well, I did and it lasted for only 5 days because I was underpaid and I wasn't going to talk about the details since it is in the past. So what present is I'm so into books and I like it. It's like getting back your old self. I loved book so much when I was a kid and I grew up reading books and it didn't matter if it's in Malay. You know, most of my reads had drama elements in it and that shaped me, a drama queen and I didn't mind that nickname at all. Plus, I took that as one of my identity.
I started going back to bookshop last year which what I meant here was I went through the bookshelves and staring at each of the book, taking an interest to the book cover and was overwhelming. Yes, I rarely read the synopsis at the back and my act really represented the famous idioms "Don't judge the books by its cover'' okay what I was saying is It's like I bought books using my instinct. Ridiculous! I felt like in a blind date with a book but blind date is like people arranging it for you and you just happened to see the person on that very day but here I got to pick which I wanted to devour. Do you get what I meant? It sucks to describe your feelings like I can only said one word but it didn't satisfied me and I wanted to show people how in love I was with the books. But why do i have to publicize it right? As long as I love it, and I know it right?
Letters to God will always be the special book to me because it brings me closer to God well Alhamdulillah for that and also brings me closer to my 'identity' well sort of. I always dream of being in a places packed of bookshelves and many books on it too. Like it kept calling me to read them. Strange, right? It makes me uncomfortable like what was that supposed to mean? Man, I wasn't thinking about books at all for many years.Well, honestly I was back into this because someone I knew loved books and he inspired me to read books as well apart from that, I wanna be better than him too. Of course the person is no longer here (in my life) but that doesn't mean I will leave books too. You know he was like a God sent to make me realize about things. Maybe books and writing were parts of me that longing to be exist in my life. That's why I'm writing blogs again. Well, I am grateful for that.
Back to the blind date with book, I am in a holiday right? long holiday so I have times to do anything I want. I discovered a booktube community on a youtube. It felt like meeting your friends well they didnt know I was watching them so that's why it is correct term to use 'friends' here. I didn't make a lot of friends too so the word itself is really precious and I considered people on booktube are my friends with the same interest and also people I admire. I love watching their confidence talking fluently in English and the way they review and recommending books really wow me. I know I'm not going to be a booktube even in the future. This is not a negative self talk 2.0 post but I'm being realistic here. I watched them to improve my vocabulary too. It's kind of learning too ugh I need to get band 5 Muet score the second time I sit for it!! I CAN DO IT!
Okay the paragraph was long and i didn't realize we didn't get into the point yet. By discovering and subscribing to some of the booktube channel I can finally know what kind of book I'm interested in and no more blind date because it sucks to have to read boring books. I found Fantasy is anyone's fav genre which influenced me to try reading one too but dont give me high end fantasy please..... and I do like classic books which I tried reading it and I just can't. Maybe I need a book with simple English but that doesnt makes me to be out of the box right? hmm I will figure this out. I need to know where I fit in.. Do pray for me :) Wow, I think I wrote long enough probably the longest post ever? I planned to update new post in another two weeks. Thought would be talking about birthday lol I kind of getting a glimpse of it and it'll be sucks lol whatever. It's not a promise hahaha we'll see.
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