March will be over soon. I've been wanting to update what's happening in my life lately but I always procrastinate so I decided that today is the day. A lot happened in March. I did not expect that. Well, I thought my life would be dull this month and nothing big happened. Life is full of surprises. I was sad and depressed for few weeks in the first few weeks of March until I was scared that I might actually have depression. I prayed to God that those bad days will leave me and I will feel okay soon. God answered and that day I was happy. I know I couldn't be happy every day but if only there's a gap between those bad days that's all I need. It's not like I didn't try to make myself happy by doing things I liked. I did but it was useless. Nevertheless, I'm gonna talk about that particular day in this blog and perhaps one more thing that makes me happy and grateful.
That day was Monday. I didn't plan to tag along. My mother and my sister went shopping at the mall where I used to work before. I remembered that my ex colleague asked me to drop by because she wanted to give me CNY angpou so I decided to follow them. My mother and my sister went to a separate way while I headed to that shoe shop. I was so shocked by the condition of the mall where I've been working before. It looked so dull and vacant. A lot of shops closed and it left me heartbroken. I also found that several escalators didn't work. Then, I met my two ex co-worker. We chatted for less than 30 minutes I think. It was nice and very grateful for them. I was very grateful for knowing them and for the 6 months I spent working there. After that, I went to Popular. I was down a bit by the limited choices of the books. I bought some essentials and walked out. I didn't know where to head to because they were not done with shopping. I didn't want to follow them because I was so tired of walking. I remembered I used the back entrance to the mall. There were shop lots at the back entrance of the mall. I saw a new coffee shop. I usually didn't tempt by any coffee shop since I'm not a coffee drinker. But, my sister mentioned that the coffee shop also has books in it. I was intrigued and decided to walk to the shop.
So glad that I saw a woman barista. I knew I should at least order a drink. I cannot just be there because I was attracted to the bookshelves. So I ordered an iced cappuccino since I was only familiar with this drink. While waiting for my coffee, My eyes running wild observing everything in the coffee shop. It was so cool that I could find such an aesthetic café in this area. I spent half an hour or maybe 45 minutes enjoying the company of book. I was not alone. I had a book with me. While drinking the coffee, I read some of The Girl Who Drank The Moon. Thank God I brought a book with me and never thought that I would read it. I just brought it because I wanted to. I was really enjoying my 45 minutes with the cappuccino, a book and a good place. After that, we went home. I couldn't contain my enjoyment on how just being there lifted my mood and speak about it the whole journey home. My happiness exploded when I reached home to two packages from book depository! I was feeling anxious about my book depository orders for weeks and finally they were safely arrived and I was over the moon. I couldn't stop thanking God for that day. It was just some simple things but I believe those simple things or little things are the sources of happiness if we appreciate it.
One more thing, I just received another good news which is I passed last semester with flying colors! I'm so grateful to God. Alhamdulillah for million times. I will do better in this semester. I will. My only dream right now is to at least get 4.0 once but I don't know. I will try to get it this semester! Oh God, I acknowledge that motivation is hardly constant throughout the semester but please never make me give up. Even if I feel demotivated or overwhelmed, please make myself reminded of this goal of mine. Amin. Week 1 just ended. Next week is week 2. I was not feeling it but after the result out, I seemed to be able to come back to my sense. Hopefully next week I will be excited to go to classes. Amin. I will try my best to update anything next month. I don't know why I feel scared for April. Breathe in breathe out. May Allah ease.
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