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My first wedding invitation + devastating news

Based on the title, yes, I went to my friend's wedding! Actually, I was surprised that I did. I faced a lot of problems before the D-day such as transportation and many other concerns. Alhamdulillah, God made it easier for me. So, how was it? It was a memorable day. We were so awkward when we first step into the place. Then, we spotted our friend looked so beautiful in her wedding gown. She and the groom were in a photography session so we decided to find a place to sit and eat. She approached us as we were about to eat and she was so stunning. I can't believe she is the same person who used to call me "Nadhir", the person we called "baby lion". How time flies. We are adults now and sometimes I tend to overlook that. We may not be as close as we were in school but it's understandable because we have so many in our plates. I was grateful to have the chance to go to her wedding celebration. I got to meet my other friends as well. In the car, we talked about our current updates and it feels surreal that my friend is a working lady now while another one just finished her degree. They are on the next phase of life. I learned a lot from their stories. It was a brief catching up session, but grateful for the opportunity. I'm not sure if we can still meet each other in the future because everyone will be busy and tired. Sometimes, I wish we never grow up because I don't want us to go astray. I know that silly thinking. May all of us will be fine.

Next, a devastating news which I received on Monday (8/8/2022). My dear grandmother passed away on this day. When my mom told me that, I was just finished a session with Dr. Haza. That day was so gloomy. It was dark and raining as it also saddened by the news. I honestly did not know how to feel. My mind suddenly played all the memories with my grandmother, She was a nice person. I was informed that she used to babysit me for a short period. When she was physically well, she told me that when she babysat me, I cried and then she recite salawat. One of the salawat was "Hasbi Rabbi". When she stopped, I said "Nek, sabi sabi". She was confused and after that she understood that I wanted her to recite Hasbi Rabbi. I will always remember this story. Until today, if I were anxious I would recite Hasbi Rabbi and I would feel better after that. She was so kind, loving and I love her so much. When she was bedridden, my heart broke. I could not see her like that. I missed her voice, her laughter and everything about her. After my mom broke the news, I spent almost an hour just to listen to Hasbi Rabbi and cried my heart out. I was grieving. I am still grieving. Al-fatihah for my grandmother. You will always have that special place in my heart.




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